trace* - journey of an adventurer and soldier

i've always wanted to be unique, outstanding and special. but along the way, i realised that no matter how hard i try, i've rarely, if ever, received positive comments like "that's amazing" or "excellent!" instead, it's usually "you can do better", "there's room for more improvement", "good job, but..." there's always a comparison to even better people or past results when you have tried your best. there is no choice but to bear with this if you want to live in a meritocratic society. good is never enough, what's excellent to you is deemed as so-so in another's perspective.